Truth and tears are what brings out the deepness in friendship.

I just felt like posting, but once i got to this page, i really don't know what to type. LOL.

I'm currently taking a break from the papers & pen & calculators. It's boring the shit out of me. Don't you find it amazing? I feel so energetic everytime i'm doing other things but once it comes to work, I magically become extremely sleepy. Argh, how i wish my brain loves to study as much as it loves u-kiss. Then i wouldn't be complaining so much here. Right now, i don't care if i'm a nerd. Tsk. Studying is good. Look at Alexander, his GPA is a freaking 3.97/4.00. < HE'S CRAZY. :(

Anywayyy. I was talking to Huivoon on Friday and we were talking about something hilarious. Then for some reason or other, we talked about our clique. & i don't know how it went to the topic of blogs, but we decided to create a blog for the 6 of us so that we'll be even closer. Don't know if it will work out or not, but we'll see. I love them all~ Go visit the blog if you have the time okay? :) It's not really ready yet, the skins are all just temporary. Looks kinda childish now :x But that's us - childish. It's fun k. ;D 

Went to dentist again yesterday to change the braces. I'm done with all the colours already, totally don't know what colours to put on! D: I changed back to blue in the end, haha. Josette was showing me all the suju stuffs & omg i can recognize some of the members from suju even though i don't know them at all LOL. (Esp Leeteuk cause he looks like Ryan wtfffff)

Then we were walking to the mrt when we saw this pink helium balloon. I said, "So pretty!!" Then Josette pulled me over to take one balloon FML!! I carried the balloon all the way to Stacie's house for the little girl ahhahahah!! 

See the balloon LOL. Sorry i had to edit the picture cause it was too dark. Haha. ;) The balloon is now in Stacie's house lololol! :D

After tuition, i went to Anchor Point to eat. One the way i remembered it was 7 already or smth, & KMs were gonna trend #2yearsofkisses on Twitter. LOL. So i totally SPAMMMMED Twitter with quotes using my PHONE. LOL. I rock don't i? HAHAHAHAHHA.

Yeah anyway, i was Twitting back at home halfway when Josette twitted to me:

 & omg wtf happened! kat-tun’s ueda tatsuya, rushed to hospital after suffering injuries during performance

And wtf i tell you, my heart stopped. ._. Idk why also. it just stopped for awhile and i was thinking "Omg? What the hell??!!"

So i quickly searched...... and saw this.

Wah, seriously wthell. KAT-TUN's like facing so much problems after Jin left. Sometimes, i really hate him. like how can he just leave them all alone? Ya but it's his choice and the rest don't blame him so... lol. Don't get me wrong, i don't hate him, i'm still his fan. Haha.

The news about Ueda totally ruined my mood for trending for u-kiss so i stopped. Lolol. I really hope KAT-TUN can get back again. I miss them so muchhh! The 6 of them actually. Jinnnnnnnn, why did you leave :(

Get well soon Ueda. :)

Okay so yesterday was their anniversary,

♥ HAPPY 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY U-KISS. 

I love all of them till the end of time~ They really make me laugh like madddd! ;D

Okayokay, goodbye. I should get back to those papers now. :)

Happy Birthday, King Of Pop. :)

Happy Birthday Jiro & JA daddy!

Yayz, i'm updating again! :D

24th August was my husband's birthday <3 HAHAHAH.

See this idiot omg so cuteeee~<3

Hehehe, he's 29 already. SO OLD LA CAN~ AHAHHA. So nice to see him still so active & he's surprisingly still popular! Okay i know i'm very bad, i'm like having super low expectations of him LOL. He's MC-ing 綜藝大國民,  doing the new MV with Fahrenheit now i think. Plus all his MUA stuffs. Wahhhh~ i wonder when he gets a break. He's really career crazy. LOL. Nevertheless, jiayou :D:D i still love you hehehhe~

I'm soooo loyal towards him can~ Weeeeee~<3

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Okay, then today is my father's birthday. Not biological father lah. LOL.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JING ANN DADDYYYYYYYYYY! 

I can't believe i'm older than my dad HAHAHHAHA it's okay, special family. :P I didn't finish singing the song just now so: Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to daddy~ Happy birthday to you!!! :D Just imagine me singing la wth HAHAHAHA. Sorry i don't have any present for you! :( I think i got the punishment already anyway, you used your present to whack me on the head :x

Anyway, i think we're really funny. The past. So many stupid things LMAOOOOOOO~ I'm glad it's all over & you're my dad now, wonderful dad. <3 :D xoxo, hope you had a fun birthday!

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& today's kinda a sad day. YOG's flame in Singapore just got put out. Sadded, it all happened so fast! I only managed to catch some of the YOG matches, & i'm glad i went to watch the Swimming one ^^ It's so honorable to have your country hold the first YOG, so proud of Singapore. I watched the volleyball matches too. Made me miss volleyball so much. I'm so envious of them too, i have no idea how those players serve the ball over so easily. :(

I want to play volleyball as well as them one day, but that would mean i have to put alot of time & effort in to the cca. Don't even know if i have the time -_-

Today's sad for me too cause i think i screwed the last prep paper. Wtf :( A maths paper sucked today. I don't know how many questions i skipped before doing + the damn classroom is super duper hot. I don't get how the people sitting in front stand the heat everyday! :@ Hais, i just hope i don't fail.

Ok la, i don't post u-kiss pictures today. LOL, spare your eyes.

Phillipines have so many problems suddenly, i'm so scared for them omg. Feel so lucky that Singapore is safe. ^^ Okayokay bye, i don't know what to type already.

Oh waittttttt!! Fahrenheit is coming out with a new album & i just saw the preview for the MV, OMG IT'S SO DIFFERENT FROM WHAT THEY WERE BEFORE! Yes i know i said that i wish they would disband. I still wish they will cause i hardly see them together until now. & i think Jiro will do better if he focus on his other stuffs but i really can't deny the fact that the MV looks so awesome!! Like totally new Fahrenheit omg!

Here you go, the mv:

I love Jiro Wang ~

I'm travelling the wrong way.

Hello guys!

Thought i should just update a little. I feel that my blog is so dead & i also feel weird everytime i leave my blog alone for awhile. Haha!

So..

Here's a few brief updates on what i've been doing apart from all the studying.

Hm, i didn't get through the DPA interview! Well, i wasn't really like crazy for that course so i'm quite relieved that i didn't get it anyway. It would really save me all the trouble of dilemma.I think i'm going to JC in the end. Talked to Jordan that day and somehow he managed to psycho me back to JC. LOL. Not that i've made up my mind, i'm really lost right now. Like, i don't know what to do in future. D:

Okay, then there was English O levels oral. I think i did quite okay. :) In fact, i think this year's topics are kinda easy lo. Scared the shits out of ourselves right before oral for nothing.

&&& i'm going to retake O level MT after all. So much for being satisfied with a B3. The irony~ I'm actually satisfied with the B3. It was my mom who initially didn't bother about my results, suddenly told me to retake. Her reason? I have nothing to lose. Oh well. :/

Went to watch YOG swimming with my babys too! To be more precise, we went there to see hot guys HAHAHAH. Omg, the South Africa guy is H.A.W.T. okay!!!! Stacie, Huivoon & Michelle went crazy over this France guy. LOL, he even waved to us. Then the stupid girl next to him went to flirt him on purpose to make us jealous HAHAHHAH wtf max!! Some pictures~

SO SAD I TELL YOU. SEE THE GUY, LEANING ON THE POLE STANDING IN THOSE FLIRTY MANNER? He's the South Africa guy. DAMN EFFING HOT I TELL YOU T_T Wanted to snap a picture of him but it came out blur + we weren't supposed to take pictures i think? Omgggggggg, plus he wasn't looking my direction. Sad x100000~

& see the 2 guys & 1 girl in the middle of them? The guy on the left is the one all three of them were fantacizing over. LOL. The girl was the one who succeeded in making them jealous :P So funny.

That day was really fun~ :) More pictures in Facebook. There's a video too. Haha, the tension on TV is more when you watch swimming actually. Maybe it's because we were sitting quite far from the pool.

Oh oh, and i went to Stacie's house to stayover yesterday. ^^

Studied in the afternoon after lunch till around 7. We didn't even realise the time till her brother went out for dinner. LOL. Walked to Sembawang Shopping centre from her house. Omg, i can walk to her house man, seriously. Maybe 25 minutes will do.

I was telling Stacie about the fan made story i read about Xander & Eli on the way up the hill. And....... guess what. I walked right into a car's license plate. The result?

ONE BIG ORH CHEH WTF.

Sadded. Then we went to eat dinner. While Stacie was ordering her food, we saw Mrs Ong. Omg! LOL so qiao pls. She was super fierce to her son. I was thinking, "Lucky she isn't that fierce to us." :P But her son seemed quite spoiled.

After dinner, went to Daiso! Cam-whored there. Super funnnn~ We were trying on stupid specs & hats & masks. LOL, we weren't really embarrassed until we saw two poly guys in Daiso too. LOL! Funny how we don't care what adults or small kids think about us. All we need is guys/girls of the same age as us, and we behave. Tsk.

Stacie only uploaded one picture on her Twitpic. I look retarded but whatever. I'm always retarded anyway. LOL.

Studied & talked till 1am, then decided to watch some videos before going to bed. Watched u-kiss vampire & Chef Kiss. ;D Still waiting for Chef Kiss ep 4 to be subbed :(

Ended up sleeping at around 3am? Omggg~ Woke at around 9 this morning. Sandy woke us up T_T Hahahah! Had fun yesterday, but i'm super tired now jeez.

(I'M GROWING FAT OMG! DIETING STARTS TOMORROW.)

Yeah, i'm going to end my post. Are you surprised that i haven't posted any pictures about U-kiss today? AHHAHAHA. I'm not gonna let you off. I'm really crazy over them now. They distract me so badly, gosh. Not gonna be biased today. Here's u-kiss for you. ;D

 *melts*

I'm totally going the wrong way. 

I don't know how to go back & it's all thanks to them. ~ ♥

As we grow up we don’t lose friends. We just learn who our real ones are.

HELLO~~~~~~ 

Don't feel like studying today so i'm here updating blog :D

I was totally in no mood to do anything yesterday, not even to watch videos. Cause i was so freaking scared for my mother tongue o level results today. I was planning to study Physics the whole day actually, but gave up in the end haha. I even went to nap for awhile in the evening. Seriously, the weather yesterday was the best for sleeping!! 

Hm, now that i'm on this page i don't know what to type hahahah! 

Okayyy. I woke up today, totally dreading the day & i was hoping that it would come & go like really quick. LOL. Met Melisa then walked to school. That superwoman took just 10 minutes to get ready for school wtf T_T i don't know how she did that man. I need at least 15-20 minutes to get ready lah LOL.

First lesson was PE. Haha, today's PE was fun. Skating again. "Leeteuk" taught us how to do the toe stop. So funnn~ :D Khoirul kept falling down la HAHAHAH so funny :P :P He kept doing funny stunds! Today was the 3rd lesson already. Sian, one more week no more "Leeteuk" T_T LOLOLOL. Just kidding. I'll miss skating~! 

Halfway through skating Mdm Bebe came out to tear down some paper on the notice board outside general office. O.m.g. Everyone totally stopped skating & went to see whether the results were out. & skating lessons totally ended LMAO.

Was superduper extremely nervous man. Part of me wanted to know my results but the other half didn't. & i was thinking, if i didn't get a B3 i'm gonna cry wtf. Anywayyy, i got a b3 kekekekeke~ :D:D Like miracle only. Don't think i'm gonna retake already. THANKYOU GOD FOR THE B3! I LOVE YOU :*:* Thanks for granting my wish ^^ Best part, i didn't even wish at 11:11 HAHAHAH.

Okayokay enough. The rest of the day was crap cause no one had the mood to listen in class. & Physics prep was really rubbish. Super not fair pls. It was the entire nov 2008 paper. Somemore set by Mr Aw wor~!?!?!?!?! WALAO. COPYRIGHT PLS!!!!!!!! So unfair to those who never did the paper cause some of them did already. WTF MAN. :@:@ Not fair ttm.

After school went to Macs to slack & wait for Stacie. Haha, Wanqi had to go back to study for Maths lalalaa~ Kept suan-ing her :x 

& Grats Huivoon for your A1!!! :D:D :*

DPA results out on Friday. I don't know if i'll get it or not. D: I even know if i want it omg.

Going to watch the YOG Swimming on Friday with school ;D Hehe. Singapore gogogogogogo!!! Itz embarrassing to host the event and not win anything y'know.~ How many medals do we have now? 3? Haha. JIAYOU! 

Ohyeahohyeah! HAPPY BIRTHDAY XANDER'S FATHER, UNCLE ANTHONY EUSEBIO~ THANK YOU FOR YOUR WONDERFUL SON OMG <3 AHAHHAHAHA. Have a wonderful day! 

Okaybye gonna catch up with u-kiss videos nowz. Haven't been watching for damn long can :( Pops In Seoul today hehehhehe!  

Ohhh, i love this song!! Kevin's voice is loved. Makes me melt................ T_T

 

3 more months, and it'll all be over. 

I'll get my life back again.~

Man Man Ha Ni.

Stacie didn't want you to see her face everytime you come her blog. So i substituted with my face. HAHAHAHHA.

No lah, i'm just free to post now. Actually, i wanted to study. Then YOG came out. & heck lah, don't study alr. -_-

Watched the YOG opening ceremony. IT'S REALLY DAMN COOL. & makes me so proud of Singapore for hosting the event :D I envy those people who took part in YOG, it's really very honourable to be part of something your country is organizing. :) Damnshit, i love the part where a guy played the white grand piano ON THE WATER.

It's really damn cool can!??!?! Guys who are musically talented are more than just awesome. :)

& the effects are all really very cool. + fireworks are super random LOL. Fire like nobody's business. I'm quite surprised they didn't sing the OhyeahOhyeah song though!

Went to do braces today. Then lunched while having tuition HAHA. Spared me from having to answer questions with my mouth full of food :x Did some work there, then went for dinner & back for YOG.

Had a reallyyyy weird dream last night. I'd say freaky. D: Didn't even expect myself to dream about that. & i kept thinking for the whole day today, trying to figure out a reason to why i dreamt that dream LOL.

Ohhh, watched abit of Idol Maknae Rebellion yesterday. KEY & DONGHO IS SUPER FUNNY TOGETHER!

& Xander is amazingly smart. He scored like, 3.97/4.00 for his GPA wthsxz. Xander, why did you choose to be a popstar? Haha, nevermind good also. At least so many people would know you ^^

Gonna end of with a picture of xander lala~

WTH @ HIS EYES LO, BIG UNTIL WTF T_T

Lovesloves, ;D

Sorry couldn't resist another picture :x So funny hehehehehee!

- Why do people always read me so easily? Lmao, everyone seems to know what i'm thinking and stuff. Well, most of the time anyway. MAN MAN HA NI!!!! Okayokay. Shutup & watch. LOL. I wanna learn the dance moves.

Xander, xoxo.

Goodbye people :)

Happy Birthday, we can watch NC16 movies together now.

HAHA. Hope you like the present ;D Like i said, it's not over yet HAHAHAHAHHA~ Have fun figuring out what i mean baby. :P So sad we couldn't do anything today cause of the preps & all. But itz okay, you have your own celebrations at home anyway ;D & now we can add more movies to our list when we're bored at the library. HAHAHHAHA~ Little girl lah you! :) xoxo

Opps, it's supposed to be Stacie's limelight today in this post LOL.

Sorry but i don't think i'm going to post very often nowadays so yeah, posting now.

PE was fun yesterday! Finally got to really skate. Our skating instructor Ryan really looks like Leeteuk, omg. I told him that and he was like, "Huh, who's that?" & either Melisa or Wanqi shouted "Generation gap!" LOL. Then i kept joking, "I talked to Leeteuk!" LMAO.

Preps started yesterday. English p2. Yesterday was so tiring. School > home > nap > dinner > bathe > date with SS > Pop in seoul > dreamland.

Though i napped, it felt as if i didn't nap at all tsk. -.- Haha, the YOG torch run was just below my house, i could hear the music & all blasting! So cool. Huivoon ran today, wee~ Hope it went well. :) So sad we couldn't go to support cause we had SS prep exam.

Stayed back after school today for English Oral practise. O level oral tomorrow! :(

Time really flies. Just a few months ago we were trying to find out if Mrs Chia was pregnant. Today, Melisa & i looked at her tummy and wow it's big.

I don't like the feeling that O levels is coming soon & i'm not even prepared. :( Guess i should really cut down on blogging, and i don't think i'll be watching any videos soon. Argh, byebye Xander for the time being :( Maybe i'll see you every Wednesday at 10.30 on Arirang TV only. T_T

& i think i'm gonna say byebye to all my loyal blog readers soon cause i will only blog when i'm free, then you'll be so bored of coming to my blog & seeing Stacie's face right in front LOL~

But you can always follow me on Twitter, i tweet everyday, and sometimes i even spam tweets HAHAHA~ Herehere! :) :) If you miss me lah~HAHAH.

Alright, jiayou all sec4's! It'z gonna be over soon.

I think i'm being stupid and dumb. I never wanna go back there again, never.

Happy Birthday, My Country.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

I love Singapore :D I never dread the fact that i was borned in Singapore.

Singapore has everything i need, though i have to admit i'm always crazy over pop stars from overseas.

But who cares? Singapore is my home & i'm loving it. :D It has my friends, my family, my food, my school, etcetc.

I'm so proud of Singapore, though learning her history can be quite boring at times.

I love Singaporeans, though being over-kiasu pisses me off sometimes.

Even though i always complain about how much work we have, i know education will benefit us when we go to other countries for work next time.

Even though we don't have the 4 seasons and itz always unbelievably hot sometimes, at least we don't have to spend so much time & efforts clearing up snow in our lawn or smth.

We can just go overseas to experience the snow anyway. :D

The best thing about Sg is that IT'S SO SAFE!

Do you ever hear about natural disasters? Well though there are some fights here & there, i think the crime rate in Singapore is so little compared to other countries.

Plus, itz clean & multi-racial  & the food is great :D

I also think we shouldn't be so embarrassed about Singlish cause thats what distinguish us from other countries, tsk. Singlish should be a new language, seriously. English will be our 2nd language, then our 2nd language will become our third, & WOW WE KNOW 3 LANGUAGES :D:D

We're small but we're one big family, itz so easy to travel & i'm not afraid to get lost cause i know i'll find my way back home eventually.

Hm, Singapore has everything we need so why migrate? :) Visiting other countries won't hurt, just come back to Singapore after everything. :D

(I know i really really really wanna go to Japan but i'm sure i'll come back to Singapore one day.)

LOL.

HAPPY 45TH BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!!!! 

I'm starting to think you were never the person we used to know.

This would probably be the last post till next week.

It's preps next week & a maths test & all those stuffs. I think i'm gonna ban myself from the computer. Cause once i turn on the computer, it'z just videos all the way. Gosh. Xander keeps on acting cute & he's big eyes are like making me go crazy! D: Just makes me wanna watch more & more & before i know it, the day is over. Sobsxz.

Then i'll be regretting the day. "I should have studied!" Ah screw that. I shall not even start on the videos. Still waiting for Chef Kiss though :(

I did some work in the morning today, then went to Stacie's house.Watched abit of videos & was dancing to Man Man Hani & Binguel Bingeul & Mworago LOL! So nice!!!!!! :D:D

Then was tuition. Did revision. I should start revising on my own soon too.

After tuition, i went to meet Josette @ Bishan interchange. I waited there for like 20 minutes then i called her & fml she was still at home LOL. So i went to meet Lindy first. :D We were looking for a place to eat.

Lindy: I'm sick of Japanese food already!
Me: Okay, then we eat other things. :D

-She walks over & stares @ a japanese restaurant for a long time-

Me: Um, that's a japanese restaurant.
Lindy: OPPS!

LOL!!!! So funny lah! :D

Went to Fish & Co in the end. Josette came, then Feric came(so rare!). Lynn was sick so she couldn't come :( Get well soon baboon!

Hmm, went to Kinokuniya to walk around for awhile. Just nice, Stacie finished dinner with her aunt & uncle so she came over to meet us. :D Hahahah! So cool leysxz :D

Talked for awhile, then went home.

Omg, we talked about going to learn the dance together. Josette wants me to learn Bonamana T_T I wanna learn u-kiss dance!!!!!!!!! D:

okay, i totally summarized the whole story. TODAY WAS FUN!!! Long time never go out with cousins already. Plus Feric's appearance was a big bonus LOL. He came with make up somemore, funny la HAHAHA! Woo~ I love today.

Sadly, it'z the last time i can play before i start mugging. Sob. I think i'm going out again soon LOL. It'z already so late, might be going to pick my mom & eat desert or smth. ;)

BONUS FOR THIS POST. MWORAGO'S DANCE!!!! :DDD (LOOK @ XANDER & DONGHO, SO CUTE TOGETHER!)

-Thanks for showing me what our friendship means to you, and thanks for all the wonderful memories. Do whatever you want, i can't stop you, neither would i stop you. All your words hurt us, all 5 of us. But you don't seem to care. Idk what does friendship/sisterhood means to you, but this is not what it means to us. I already apologised, i already explained to you, we're thinking of a solution for the problem, and i was so ready to listen to your explaination. You? Forget about us, forget about the problem, ignore us. Great, really great.

I just wanna be smile like nobody's business but things keep getting in the way.

Ohmygosh.

I don't know what to update now.

Okay..... Yesterday PE was a disappointment. :( Everyone thought it was going to be rollar-blading. In the end it was badminton. Fol. :( It was fun though, got so hyper with Wanqi LOL~ I pretended to be Xander & she pretended to be Ohnew LOLOL. Super funny uhhh! Melisa & Suzhen just kept giving us the "-_-" look HAHAHA.

Hmmmm, the rest of the day was boring. Esp after recess where clique's mood got ruined.

Today, graduation ball details out. Omg, i'm so shocked about the news keke. It's Masquerade!!! I wanna go, it's going to be so cool. :) I just wish my class was as enthusiastic as me :( What Jonathan told me today was kinda true. Even if we really have chalet, what're we going to do? He said we might just play Jungle speed 24/7. Lol.

Had Chinese test today. T_T Wth. MT o levels is over you knowww :( Idk why we had a test today. D: Not in a mood to do the test at all. I think i'm gonna flunk it. I want a B3 for o levels please. :( Pleasepleaseplease. I don't want to retake. Cause even if i retake, the results will be around the same.

So freaking stress uh, prep exams next week. Wth man, they just told us TODAY & prep exam is NEXT WEEK. Dear School, you're the best at planning stuffs for us. (Y) Amaths topics not even done yet, still have prep exam. You rock la huh. :) Best. (Y)(Y)!

To Hv:
Okay. i really don't want to type this but i think i have to. It's best to make our feelings clear.
I read your blog.
I don't know what to say. I'm more disappointed and sad than angry.
All these happened without any reason, and i really don't know why this is happening. All i know is that one day you were fine and happy, the next day you don't know us anymore.
& i'm not going to go on about this anymore.
I just have a few questions:

How much do we mean to you?
Do we mean so little to you that you think we'll just forget you after o levels?
Do we mean so little that you can't tell us your true feelings?
What about all the things we've been through, and everything we're planned for the future?
Are you really sad, or are we not as important anymore?
Or is it that you feel neglected?
If so, why did M & S tell me you were laughing so loud & happily in the toilet with others?

Anyway, i really hope all these would end & i really want to know the answers to this. You're still as important as before if this is what you want to know. All 5 of us had no mood to do anything yesterday, i don't know if you're happy or not. Just... stop this shit. It's making no sense. Tell us your answer when you're ready to do so, we'll wait.

(Sorry for the misunderstanding)

To someone else:
Omg, & please. If you're angry at somebody. RANT YOUR ANGER AT THE PERSON, NOT ME. I'M NOT THE PERSON, I DON'T THINK I DESERVE TO GET SCOLDED. I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG, SERIOUSLY. & LET ME SAY AGAIN, I FUCKING HATE UNREASONABLE PEOPLE. YOU CAN LIE YOU CAN SMOKE YOU CAN DO WHATEVER YOU WANT, THE TYPE OF PEOPLE I HATE MOST IS PEOPLE WHO IS UNREASONABLE. Even the slightest bit makes me seriously detest you. Yes, i said detest. It's a strong word & i mean it. And believe me, i'll remember every single detail of you being unreasonable forever.

I just wanna be a happy girl, why are people making things so difficult for me. -.- & Sorry, i won't give up. I'm a strong girl :)

STUDYSTUDYSTUDY, GAMBATEH!

U-kiss never fails to cheer me up @ times like this. Gonna watch shows nowz. Keke ;D

Second thoughts.

How would you feel if your best friend all of a sudden go out with others & looks as if she has forgotten you? How would you feel if your best friend suddenly talks so coldly to you? How would you feel is your best friend, someone whom you were talking to so happily the day before, suddenly acts as if she isn't your close friend to you? How would YOU feel?

Well, i don't care about what you feel. I'm telling you, i feel sad. I feel hurt. I feel angry. I feel irritated. I feel frustrated. I have many other feelings, all mixed together. All except for one: happy.

I don't know what went wrong, and i have no idea what is happening, but i know that none of us wanted this to happen. & even if there is no problem like she said, i feel as though there is one. How can someone just don't bother about us overnight? Someone we could talk to & laugh too, and now all we're left is cold and formal conversations.

And yet again, nothing is wrong.

I'm just saying out my feelings. Or maybe really nothing happened, maybe we aren't so important anymore. Sigh, i don't know, i really don't know.

It's just so sudden, i don't know what to say. We're trying to solve the problem, trying to figure out what's wrong, trying to change, but she says there is no problem at all. If there is really no problem, why aren't we like before, laughing so hard till our tears flow & playing afool so childishly? I miss those times, i don't want to have problems like this.

I'm really sick & tired of problems. I had enough for the past 8 months. All i want now is to focus on studies till o's are over. But i can't leave this hanging like this. What about all the things we've planned? Are things still going to be as smooth as it was?

I really don't know.

I hope all this will end soon.

I wish Pops In Seoul can cheer me up today. I want my clique to be happy all over again.

They're the most cherished people in my life, all 5 of them, and i thank God for them.

Yawn.

I'm so tired. Idk why i feel as though i haven't updated my blog for a longlong time. Maybe because today's a really long day for me and i'm d.e.a.d.e.x.h.a.u.s.t.e.d. so i don't know why i'm here blogging too. Ohwhatever i'm crapping.

Anyway.

Watched the sorcerer's apprentice yesterday, after going to Stacie's house to study. Teehee, she's watching u-kiss vampire & falling in love with Kibum! ^^

The show's nice!!! :) Although i didn't really feel like watching at first, i'm like no in a mood for movie nowadays. So i went in the cinema without knowing what the movie is about ._. Pro me! In the end it's damn nice okay. The effects is like, wow. Haha!

A picture speaks a thousand words. Here's 2 thousand words for you. ;D

Hmmm, today is tiring. Idk why i felt so sleepy in the morning already. -.- Went to school like a zombie. Had a surprise Physics test today. I hardly even studied lah, just alittle here and there. Plus the questions are all so funny. itz like asking me why am i studying physics. Pfffttttttt. VE was fun though, Mr Quake suddenly talked to us about some personal stuffs, so cool hehe ;D

Got back our compo today too. Finally got to read the compo Isaac wrote about me. HAHA he failed LMFAO. So much for me dying. :P :P Should have named the dog in my story Isaac. Tsk.

Was telling melisa all about Raising Idols & how funny Dongho was. HAHA. She's trying to stop herself from watching the show nowz. :P

After school, Suzhen & i rushed to NP for DPA. Wtf, spent such a long time looking for Canteen 2 & Block 72 -__- Kept having to call Isaac lmfao. Finally met them,Suzhen went for interview & we went to eat in the canteen which is freaking far from block 72. My legs were alr aching laa. I was physically & mentally tired and really didn't feel like taking the interview mansxzzzzzz.

Was showing Isaac Man Man Hani's mv after eating HAHAHAHAHHAHAH random much.

When i had to go for my interview, Suzhen just finished hers ._. So long uh. I went up & took a seat to wait for my turn. When i got there, there was this girl who smiled at me. Haha so i smiled back & wanted to talk to her. Suddenly someone whispered : "Mandy!"

I was like, "Huh who calling me?" LOL.

Then i looked opposite. "OMG JIAMIN!"

HHAHAHAH. I saw my primary school mate at the interview! So cool plsss!! She was waiting for her friend so she came over next to me to talk to me. Surprised that we can still talk so much & so much better than before. LOL. So cool uhhhh! I love meeting Primary school friends. She was actually suggesting a chalet for 6f LOL.

I talked to her for quite long so i didn't feel nervous. It was until she went that i started feeling nervous T_T Then it was finally my turn. My mind was totally blank la cus i'm too tired zzzzz. Blabbered anything that came to my mind.

AGGGHH. but after the whole interview i'm like, "Phew! Finally over." Hahahah! & then i went home. So sleeppyyyy.

I'm not really awake as i'm typing this right now. Seriously.

Im like drunk cus im too tired. kk nightz & byez.