Honesty.
So many things have been going on in my mind recently. I guess holidays aren't that good after all. When you're bored, you just let your mind wander off itself. If you really really know me, you'd know that i'm one who actually keeps everything to myself. Mostly all my problems or sadness. I don't know why, probably i just don't know where to start or who to go to. Figured no one would ever come to this blog, so yeah.
Really hope all these problems would go away, and seriously, i hope i'm doing the right thing. & yeah, everyone has their own lives so i doubt anyone would be there for me even if i want them too. I know i told myself to be understanding, they're busy. But no, as time goes by, i just learn how self-centred you guys are. Well, don't be surprise when i turn my back on you when you come knocking on my door. By then you'll probably call me a hyprocrite, a bad friend, but have you ever thought of how you treated me? :)
It's the holidays now & i'm enjoying myself, but once i reach home my mind's flooded with so many things. There are only a few people i can bring myself to trust, but i'm scared they'll walk away all over again. Zzz, i'm sorry i sound so emotional now, i just needed to get all these out. i'm exhausted, mentally & physically. The good part is that i know God's here for me, & he's guiding me through. ^_^ ♥
Oh, and for a record, I don't live to entertain you. I don't owe anyone anything.
Finally a load off my chest, i can go back to being the retarded me again!